idk

i dont think i have anything to live for

nothing......

my parents hate me

my brother is just a dick....

i stoppet self harming 3 weeks ago

and im not sure

i think i might be grabing that knife once again.

i know i supposidly have friends that care but i knnow deep down that they don't

i rember having a brake-down once and who was the person who comferted me?

not my friends

but one of my worst fucking enemys (well she not that bad anymore..)

i know i shoudent starve myself as well

but the pain in my gut is one of the only things i can control

i had around 900 calories today

if that....

and i consider that to much

i know its 300 under the mininem amount you should eat

but i cant eat.....

i just cant if i do i will hate what i see in the mirror even more

i dont even know if thats possible

seriously.....

the scars on the outside may fade but inside thay are still raw

Okay
I Went To The Zoo
Fun
X]
I Saw Lions
Fish
Sand Cats
Ect
it was fun but it was sooooo cold
i went shopping then cause im cool like that
x]
i saw this fit emo kid there
*drools*
in Game (yesh nerds are smexy)

First Post

So Another Blog

I Wonder If I'm Going To Keep This Up

I Really Need A Diary outside of the Computer Its More Private.

Some Of You May Know Me From Polyvore

Some of you may know me from ...Ur elsewhere

I Have No Idea What To Write

How About What I Did Today

X]

hmm

so far i slept

swum for 3/4 of an hour

played the piano

AND

had 1/3 of a tin of baked beans

and one thin slice of white toest no butter

(anyone know how may calories are in that?)

Yeah that's it

Its Cold In Wales

so at this present moment i can't feel my fingers

fun

-_-

I hate X-mas there's too much chocolate

i mean i have 2 advent calender's FULL of chocolate

Music Exam - 4 Days

X-mas- 12 Days

GSCE Phys- 42 Days

FOB Consert- Sometime in March

This Vid Is A Real Eye Opener

Anorexia Retouched: The Real vs. The Fake

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=LLM7UueffEo