idk

i dont think i have anything to live for

nothing......

my parents hate me

my brother is just a dick....

i stoppet self harming 3 weeks ago

and im not sure

i think i might be grabing that knife once again.

i know i supposidly have friends that care but i knnow deep down that they don't

i rember having a brake-down once and who was the person who comferted me?

not my friends

but one of my worst fucking enemys (well she not that bad anymore..)

i know i shoudent starve myself as well

but the pain in my gut is one of the only things i can control

i had around 900 calories today

if that....

and i consider that to much

i know its 300 under the mininem amount you should eat

but i cant eat.....

i just cant if i do i will hate what i see in the mirror even more

i dont even know if thats possible

seriously.....

the scars on the outside may fade but inside thay are still raw